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Post by sweetznut on Mar 14, 2007 14:18:31 GMT -5
Tileki and Katie(moo) I will definitely try to not focus on a number ( I've even been debating taking up your scale challenge! ahh! haha) and no, the pound only makes a difference in my head lol. : )
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Post by swimhoney0073 on Mar 14, 2007 16:21:47 GMT -5
Hi sweetnutz BKA lynn lol my name is amanda and sorry for not introducing myself earlier. but i am on here as well for i used to have a really bad ED. i was on the varsity field hockey team eatying like 1000 calories a day. it was bad. but now i wouldnt say im FULLY recovered.. i still have disordered eating. like i will only eat at certain times, have to have everything perfect and well balanced.. etc etc.
your goals sound great! easy to manage/ maintain/ change. i hope to start eating more " normally" now as well! we will see how that goes! goood luck!!
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Post by Nicole on Mar 16, 2007 7:24:24 GMT -5
ugh isn't it bad how we used to be so active and eat so little? i wonder now how much better i could have been at ballet if i wasn't eating below 1000 cals then
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Post by jennifer92 on Mar 16, 2007 7:32:54 GMT -5
its so scary to look back! i would go to 2 hrs of xc and then do MORE on my own, eating only 500. i wonder if i would've been so much better, and if i would have been eating enough last summer, if i would've gotten injured......
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Post by Nicole on Mar 16, 2007 7:35:39 GMT -5
you def. would have jenn. your sooo much better off now *hugs*
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Post by tileki on Mar 16, 2007 10:54:58 GMT -5
I think it is amazing that no one around us noticed more. Especially the girls who were/are still living with their parents. How do the parents not notice at dinner when the child doesn't eat more then a few bites, or only eats salads, ya know?
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Post by Nicole on Mar 16, 2007 11:44:49 GMT -5
i was completely in charge of my own food. my mom thought i was being healthy and thought i looked "the best" at 84 pounds. she still doesnt' acknowledge that i have a problem.
my dad, on the other hand, only saw me ONE TIME...ONE TIME through that skinny period, and when he came up here for my birthday, and he cody and i were having dinner, he mentioned how our society is so focused now on being thin, and i said "i know its so disgusting" and he said "you went through that phase..right? but you know better?"
so even he...someone who saw me ONCE during my severe ana phase...knew i had a problem. but not my mom who saw me every day.
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Post by katie on Mar 16, 2007 12:24:36 GMT -5
i know, it's bizarre. for me, i was overweight to begin with so my parents knew i was on a "diet".. it's just that the diet because so extreme and turned into my ED. i was eating around 500 cals or less and exercising 3 hours a day!.. but looking back when i stopped my ED behaviour and upped to at least 1200 (that was a lot for me from 500) i ended up losing more weight. stupid ED's! but, everything happens for a reason
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Post by katiesaysmoo on Mar 16, 2007 14:29:15 GMT -5
canadakatie: are you one of those girls who suffered from an ED but no one would ever know because you weren't sickly thin? i think i remember you saying that you got down to 128 or something?
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Post by sweetznut on Mar 16, 2007 14:33:25 GMT -5
Katiemoo - I'm kind of like that, no one would think ( by just looking at me) that i have 'issues' because I am not skinny/thin or anything like that.
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Post by tileki on Mar 16, 2007 15:34:23 GMT -5
That is how I was too - which only made it harder for me to realize how bad the problem had become. I associated anorexia with being really thin, and I wasn't, so I didn't think what I was doing was that big of a deal.
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Post by swimhoney0073 on Mar 16, 2007 17:00:40 GMT -5
it was really scary for me because i almost got down to that scary thin. if my friends didnt pull me in that office then, i would have kept dropping. ill post some pics of before on the webshots. and after ones now. but i thought the same as u leila, im not SICKLY thin.. so i can still go on and loose more. where was my line of comfortability?
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Post by jennifer92 on Mar 16, 2007 22:49:10 GMT -5
i think we were all really good at hiding it, and its never easy for parents to admit it, cause then i think they question what they did wrong. I would excercise for hours at night instead of sleep, and my parents didnt realize i didnt eat lunch at school. My friends noticed right away. my best friend liz and sophie once actually sat there and forced cookies down my throat, but i got so good at working around them that i really scared them. (o/t but i am thinking about sending a letter to my friend liz to just kind of tell her what happened and where i am now) i might put up a pic of me then, and one of me now to show the comparison.
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Post by sg1979 on Mar 25, 2007 16:51:57 GMT -5
my mom still doesn't know anything. i was at her house on wednesday and telling her about how when eamonn's sister and mom talk about dieting and weight watchers points, it really bothers me. then she says "well you're tiny and you don't eat anything, how could you diet?" like, that's totally normal. HELLO? i mean i'm not going to bring it up with her, but if i were her i would bring it up with me, you know? i AM 27 so it's not like it's her responsibility or anything, it's just weird she's never commented. anyways goals...well i'm 5'2" and 105. i guess i just want to maintain, but i'd also kind of like to lose, but then i think that's the ed part of me. so anyways, those are my stats at least.
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Post by Nicole on Mar 25, 2007 19:17:43 GMT -5
yeah lauren you def. don't need to lose at ALL. that's ed talking i know since i've been doing yoga i've felt better about my body, maybe try doing something like that? or pilates?
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